You ever had those days when everything seems to be shifting you off your path? Maybe it is trying to wake up on a day you are just emotionally and physically spent, or maybe it's rushing the kids because they were dragging their feet. Those things and more made up my morning yesterday morning. Every pair of shoes my two year old owns had one shoe missing. She decided to throw a fit as we walked out the door, because of what was in her sippy cup. I've kept her home from the kids play area all week due to a runny nose and slight cough, only to have her nose run when she went back. Are you feeling the frazzle? It all seemed crazy and as I was apologizing to my children when they went out the door for mommy freaking out this morning, I hung my head and took a breath and wondered what I did to have such a morning. There is light at the end, I learned quite a bit today.I learned that no matter how much you learn, some days are just more of a challenge then others. I learned that reaching out to others is necessary for our emotional survival. I learned that I have a great team by my side that is ready to lift me up on my challenging days. I learned that vulnerability is not a weakness, but a sign that my heart is opening up to trust others, and sometimes it just hurts to care. I learned that my children are forgiving and that I can reach out to them sometimes, even when I think I should be the strong one. I also learned that without the knowledge of who I am and where I am going, a day like this could leave me in the mire to kick the pricks and wallow.
I hadn't prepared the night before for my morning schedule. I was tired from not sleeping well for two nights and emotional from challenging my beliefs. I was seeing only the things I wasn't doing, instead of the countless good things was doing. I wonder why I can't see the miraculous, gifted, loving woman that God made me! I came upon a audio/video this week that touched me and still does each time I watch it. Hold on. Understanding the fear of who I can be with God is so essential, that it's imperative for me to break through my barriers and go forth with head high and shoulders back to fulfill those things I am put on this earth to do. So here is to vulnerability, truth, and showing up for life prepared and ready to roll, because.......
"If Ye are Prepared, Ye shall not fear"
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